my gigolo

he descended to my world cloaked with shyness
and bearing only a smile of mystery.
i took his kiss to the pit of loneliness
hoping for answers to my misery.
but the kiss only tasted with tongue, rolling and bland,
devoid of sun sweet affection.
still i allowed myself to be plunged and drowned
in this candied affliction.
with the attention he bestowed upon
my itchy self, famished with kisses and love,
in a cornucopia of words i lured him on
and he readily bowed, i thanked God above.
but now i ask myself where i dwell
in his glamorous world concealed by his fears.
or does he even fear for his shell?
or his secrets of providing untold pleasures?
in all my scrutiny, i found his deceiving sly,
his craft of luring unsuspecting victims.
he clips their wings as fast as he can undo his fly
like he curtailed my freedom with his schemes.
i would have paid him in dimes instead
had he told me of his sheepish flesh business.
but he never asked for a price to be paid
so i gave him my heart, my world, my foolishness.

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i wrote this way back in 2003. i still have to unearth my email files to know the exact date! ;)

paghahakot part 2

i had a surprise last week. somebody whom i wasn't expecting to be visiting my blog told me he reads my blog! wowow! it was indeed a pleasant surprise. i even had a very nice exchange of emails with him. and i'm quite positive that in time we might even become really good friends. :)

our communication made me think of posting the poems i wrote before. i wasn't into poetry writing until he introduced me to it. well back in college i wrote some but they were all corny stuffs. actually the things i wrote after his invitation to a poetry mailing list were even cornier than the poems i wrote in school.

anyways, i will post here some of those i wrote in the past. of course, those that are not so corny lang. hehehe. it's for posterity's sake na rin coz i've lost track of some of my poems due to not saving them.

abangan ang mga sulat ko before!

kakabag kabag?

mega kabag ang tyan ko ngayon!

start lang yesterday after lunch. ewan ko. sumakit bigla. punta akong doctor. dami daw air. parang hinigop lahat ng air sa singapore. buti na lang clean air dito kundi bumubuga na ko ng usok ngayon every time i burp! hehehe. tapos ngayon mega kabag pa rin. ano ba ito lord? sana pagbubuntis na lang. aside from the sakit kasi, nahihilo ako. at nasusuka. symptoms ng pagbubuntis. at nag-cra-crave ako ng mexican food! waaahhhh...

oh, toot lang ang lunas nito. sana mangyari tonight. uncomfortable na talaga.

to B or not to B

nagkukulitan kami nina romae, shih, and sue sa email earlier about a coffee maker na kukunin ko from diners. niloloko nila ako kung kaninong B dapat ibigay ang coffee maker. at kung kanino ako dapat ibigay! pamigay daw ba! :p

nakagawa tuloy ako ng song! song nga ba itu? hehehe

coffee to b
and me to b
how about b to b?
hmmm, so who is b?
and the other b?
let's make it
coffee to bo
and me to bo
i wish bo is my beau
but which bo?
hmmm, who is bo?
let's make it
coffee to bon
and me to bob
though i also want bon
coffee's more fitting for bon
coz when you shake the coffee
you're shaking the bon bon
so i'm left with the bob
the bomb of Bs

:p

First Love by Utada Hikaru (English)

our last kiss
tasted like tobacco
a bitter and sad smell

tomorrow, at this time
where will you be?
who will you be thinking about?

you are always gonna be my love
even if I fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song

the paused time is
about to start moving
there's many things that I don't want to forget about

tomorrow, at this time
I will probably be crying
I will probably be thinking about you

you will always be inside my heart
you will always have your own place
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song

you are always gonna be my love
even if I fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song

First Love by Utada Hikaru

Saigo no kisu wa ka ba tabako no flavor ga shita
Nigakute setsunai kaori

Ashita no imagoro ni wa
Anata wa doko ni irun darou
Dare wo omotterun darou

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love love songu
Atarashii uta utaeru made

Tachidomaru jikan ga
Ugoki dasouto shiteru
Wasuretakunai kotobakari

Ashita no imagoro niwa
Watashi wa kitto naite iru
Anatawo omotterun darou

You will always be inside my heart
Itsumo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Mada kanashii love love song
Now and forever

bobby the baboy

sue gave me a baboy today! it sings and moves to the tune of "my girl"! hehehe... kakatuwa! the funny thing was, i was playing in my head sa office kanina ang song na "my girl" na version ni john stevens sa american idol season 3. wala kasi sya sa tono nun eh nung kinanta nya sa AI! hehehe.

the baboy is named porker according dun sa tag nya. i asked sue if i could rename him to bobby. mas bagay kasi ang bobby eh. bobby the baboy! baboy kang bobby ka! hehehe. not that i loathe his namesake! hehehe. cute ang baboy eh. cute si bobby! cute si bobby! hehehe.

kakatuwa talaga! sobra!

MY GIRL (Temptations)

I've got sunshine on a cloudy day.
When it's cold outside I've got the month of May.
I guess you'd say
What can make me feel this way?
My girl (my girl, my girl)
Talkin' 'bout my girl (my girl).

I've got so much honey the bees envy me.
I've got a sweeter song than the birds in the trees.
I guess you'd say
What can make me feel this way?
My girl (my girl, my girl)
Talkin' 'bout my girl (my girl).

Hey hey hey
Hey hey hey
Ooooh.

I don't need no money, fortune, or fame.
I've got all the riches baby one man can claim.
I guess you'd say
What can make me feel this way?
My girl (my girl, my girl)
Talkin' 'bout my girl (my girl).

I've got sunshine on a cloudy day
with my girl.
I've even got the month of May
with my girl (fade)

true or false

when you're used to joking around, it can be hard to distinguish what's real and true from what's plain jest and untrue. it doesn't matter if all you want to do is just joke around. but what if you want to know if the joke means something? of course, there's a risk of being called presumptuous if you would ask if what you're being told is a joke or not! that's why you don't ask such questions to people whom you're used to kidding with. asking may break something: the fun, possibly the relationship, or your barrier against your fears.

they say jokes are half-meant. in my case, i can say yes. it's even full meant. i just don't know about his.

i love you 2

wow! two other dear friends reminded me that i am loved by them. very sweet! i know that naman. :)

as i said, my sadness comes and goes like rain. it rained yesterday but it's a sunny day today! i was all smiles today! ;) may kadramahan days lang talaga. parang times na "meron" ako na nawawala din.

anyways, i love you too madz, nene, and the rest of the friendships! and that goes to all my friends, family, and syempre pa to all the Bs in my life! :p

i love you

those words came when i needed them most. today is a sad day for me. sadness for me is like rain. i don't know when it comes but i know that it would and will come at any time. and just like rain, i can't control it. i just wait for it to stop.

to keep myself from wallowing and sulking, i contacted some friends.

i called up mae to bid her well wishes for her schooling in japan. just before we hung up, she said, "luv u ems". it was surprising but i needed that. my good friend probably felt it at the other end.

i sent a text message to tita virgie just to say hi. she told me to take care with "love you" at the end of the message. i needed that.

they filled in what i felt was empty in me today. i'm glad to have contacted them.

though, i was wishing that someone would also tell me those words. someone who crept up unexpectedly in my life just recently. i'm just waiting.