post vacation musings

it's probably a default thing that happens. when i took a taxi from singapore's budget terminal to go home, i started thinking about work that awaits me the next day. good thing such thoughts never bothered me while i was on vacation. although, my 2 days 2 nights stay in phuket over the weekend wasn't as superb as i hoped it would be, i didn't worry at all of the things that i have to do this week.

in parts i enjoyed my vacation because of the company i was in but there were just some downtimes which i attribute to my own doing. i had been more reflective at times rather than being sociable and enthusiastic. i was drifting to other worlds in my mind in the middle of some interesting topics that my newfound friends were busy with. roland noticed my silence most of the time. my thoughts weren't about work, mind you. they were about something else. something bigger than the world! hehehe.

anyhow, the vacation actually ended with a bang. the last person i parted with whom i originally had qualms of conversing with turned out to be the best discourse i had in the entire trip. i found a kindred soul. an hour of waiting for our flights gave us a chance to open up ourselves to each other. but no this is not your romantic kind of connection. it's the kind where you realize there are others out there who somehow mirrors you: your way of thinking, your experiences, and pretty much who you are. it's the kind that makes you feel you're not alone.

hmmm, the trip wasn't not superb after all. my musings in between lively group discussions were justified by another capricorn born during that short hour of waiting for our flights back to each our homes. plus, i got to see old friends and gained new ones. yeah it was a superb vacation despite my "out of the party" mood.

o tukso layuan nyo ako!

when i'm down and weary, i give in to temptation.

this time, it's a $79 bedsheet!!! uy mahal na mahal na yan for me ha! i can buy 3 sets with that amount already!

hay, sira na naman ang budget this month! :(

sige na lang, masarap naman ang tulog! ;)

dream interpretation

last night i dreamt of eating glass. yeah like it was something really delicious! i remember that at first, on my plate were pieces of glass from the window of our kitchen at my current house, yet the setting was in a restaurant with my mom and a friend daw ha! i munched on them kitchen window glass with gusto! when i finished eating what's on my plate, the setting changed. behind me was the the window of our dining area at home. i went to the window, stood on a stool, and took two jalousie glasses. people at the restaurant were looking at me as i put the two jalousie glasses on my plate. aside from being aware of the eyes on me, i was wondering how i'd eat the two glasses when they were fatter than my arms!!! well, i think i didn't eat them at all. a little later though, a lady came to our table and told me that there's a furniture shop nearby where i could buy some jalousie glasses! wehehehe. end of dream.

i usually consult www.dreammoods.com for my dreams. here's what it had to say about eating glasses.

"To dream that you are eating glass, highlights your vulnerability, confusion and frailty. You may have difficulties in communicating your thoughts across and getting the right words out. Alternatively, it may symbolize your hurtful and cutting comments. Perhaps you have been hurt or disappointed by something that someone had said. Or you need to be careful in how you phrase and word things or run the risk of offending others."

hmmm. i was amazed at the "correctness" that this interpretation have. well, for my case, that is. i've had some moments lately of not being able to communicate well my thoughts and feelings that i, most of the time, withdrew myself from continuing what i was about to say. it happened to me yesterday and today. and YEAH there's one incident lately when i was hurt (or pa hurt hurt hehehe) by what someone said! i didn't expect that time that words that were supposed to comfort could hurt! hehehe. or baka nag-da-drama lang ako nun! :p anyways, for now, ayoko syang makausap! mag-enjoy syang mag-isa! wahehehe. :p makakakain na nga lang ulit ng glass! mas masarap pa kaysa sa kanya! :p

sweet 20 something

happy birthday suzie!!! :)

mwah!

corrections and keepsakes

i went through my japan memorabilia as they lie cluttered on my desk since april pa. gosh! i still haven't thrown any of the brochures, bullet train tickets, and even the notes i made on an a5 bond paper. i just can't seem to part with them. it seems that i'll forget my experiences if i throw them away.

i went through the huis ten bosch brochure. i discovered that i made a mistake of claiming in one of my earlier posts that one of the pictures i took was that of a replica of netherland's queen beatrix' palace. it was not. it was the ANA hotel. i have to correct it here. mahirap na. baka i-demanda pa ako! :p

i wasn't able to go to palace huis ten bosch pala, which was the actual reproduction of the queen's residence, due to the rain, limited time, and the huge size of the place. the movie feature, where the viewers' faces were scanned and made as characters in it, was called grand odyssey. it's the first participatory movie theater in the world. the restaurant where i had the most expensive meal of my life so far was in hotel amsterdam. the best 3d movie i ever saw was also in huis ten bosch: mysterious escher. the animal park which i failed to go to was called biopark. finally, the tower where i took the "aerial" shots of huis ten bosch wasn't a clock tower at all. (another wrong claim! sigh!) it was a landmark tower called domtoren.

i'm writing all these names since i'll be throwing the brochures and the notes. i can't hold on to them. since i've already decided on what i will be doing, i can't hang on to every item i collect in every place i go to. good thing i have this blog. it will come useful for someone who shall be leading a nomadic life in the months to come. this blog will remind me of the places i went to and will be going to, things i did and will be doing, and experiences i had and will be having.

but until my vagabond life begins, i will hold on to some little things for a while. some are just hard to part with like the little notes i got from friends. even the package wrapper of a book delivered through snail mail is not easy to throw away. i'm not sure if i'll be bringing these with me when i start packing my suitcase; but, for now, they'll stay on my desk waiting for my fingers to run through them once more in times of reminiscing.

ratatouille

watch it! for me, it was the best movie i've watched so far this year! ;)

it elicited mixed feelings and reactions from me. that's what usually makes me love a movie, a song, or a book or anything!

it made me laugh. it gave me a lump in the throat. it even made me scream once although it's not a horror movie. i was just taken by surprise. hehehe. the best feeling? laughing while having a lump in the throat! :p it was a first for me!

to quote suzie q's favorite line in the movie:

if i don't love it, i don't swallow! wahehehe. :p

best movie for the family! i hope there's a ratatouille restaurant opening. but i don't wish for a rat chef mind you! :p

nihon turipu apr 21: such a gay day!

i used to highlight in earlier posts either how early or late i woke up in the days during my japan trip prior to april 21; but this date, it'll be different. i neither woke up early nor late because i slept way way past a decent sleep time hour and so i woke up later than late! :p

from my dinner with the friendships tokyo edition on the 2oth, i went straight to arty farty in shinjuku to party and disco with a friend, who turned out to be a party animal after i left him to fend for himself in 2004! you see, i discovered this multi-colored-eyed (his eye color change depending on many things like surrounding light or his mood) brown-haired hansamuna otoko no hito in 2004 and trained him to full beauty-hood that led him to spread his wings and fly! teehee! i danced all night until, hmmm maybe, around 5 am with roland, kazuya, shinichi, and, of course, the unforgettable jun! :p why unforgettable? well, you'll find out later! hehehe.

despite having not enough sleep and being exhausted from my travel from osaka to kyoto to tokyo the day before, i danced like crazy because i knew that my trip would be ending soon! talagang sinulit! sayang ang ginastos lahat lahat eh! hahaha. and because i danced like there was no tomorrow, roland would regularly tell me of people who were checking me out. pero wa care ako! sometimes kasi, i get too carried away in dancing at wala na akong pakialam sa mundo because i become music itself. charing! may ganun ba? :p but one japanese guy was too good to be ignored. well, at least for roland at first. roland kept telling me that the guy behind me kept looking at me. when i turned around. holy mama of creation! one of the handsomest japanese faces i've ever seen in my life in a black suit with the tie loosened was hurriedly looking at the space above me at the instant that i turned to look at him. there was one problem though. he was too tall for me! wehehehe. i think he was about 6 feet tall. those who know me know my preference for diminutive beings. hehehe. :p

i turned back to roland and told him that the guy wasn't looking at me at all. roland told me that he would look away each time i face his direction and that he'd be observing me every time my back was to him. ging gang gooly goodness gracious! i started becoming conscious. di na ko makapag-sayaw ala shakira! naging mahal at mura na yata yung steps ko after that. and the naughty roland would be pushing me towards the guy. ano yan? nasaan na ang ating mga holding hands ha??? ooopppsss wrong revelation! :p

i tried to be brave but di ko kinaya ang kaguapuhan nya. i tried to dance with him but only for a very short while. naisip ko kasi: am i worthy? nag-dive ang confidence ni emman. hehehe. so i went on dancing with my friends until some other guys, or gays whichever they were, joined us. one of them was a half japanese half pinoy who only knew filipino curse words because he already grew up in japan. another one was ian, a fellow half filipino half filipina, na ni-reto ko kay jun which, later, i regretted of doing. crush ko kasi si jun because of his childish antics. lalo pa akong na in lab dahil talentado pala sya! :p

sometime when i took a break outside the bar, i met the tall handsomest guy ever. i mustered all the mustard-like confidence i could and smiled at him. we talked for about 15 seconds. unfortunately he was going home because his friend was going home. and in a quick instant, time was suddenly frozen or at least i had the movie-like slow motion moment, he hugged me! gosh! it was the best hug of my life! haaaaayyyyy. that was it. he walked away, waved and smiled while i could only look on, melting like ben n jerry's chocolate fudge brownie ice cream! yummy! :p

you cannot blame me for not being able to get his number or email or you could say for letting the moment pass by. i was too mesmerized to do anything. and i guess he was also boyishly embarassed at what he did. oh my god. kinikilig na naman ako ngayon. tinatamaan ako ng arrows ni cupid! :p

enough of him na. sumasakit lang ang dibdib ko. :p

at around 5am, the same gang with the addition of ian, went to jonathan's, a 24 hour restaurant. duon masyado nang kinareer ni ian si jun! hmph! well, kasalanan ko naman kung bakit sila naging close. after having breakfast, we all went for karaoke. ang gagaling kumanta ng mga hapon! lalo na si jun. when he sang an emotional song, ian and i were looking at him with our jaws open! kaka-in love!!! i discovered that jun has a band. and i later discovered when i was in singapore already that he is the vocalist and guitarist of the ogs band with a number of screaming fans to their name! gosh! celebrity pala sya. hihihihi! :p one to-do thing ticked! ;)


i just have to mention that i sang islands in the stream with roland. hmmm, ganun kaya kami?

i think we left at around 9am. i got to lily's place at past lunch time. when i got there nagligpit pa ko. i asked them to let me sleep for a couple of hours. at 630, i was meeting roland again for dinner. i think i slept at around past 2. i planned of waking up at 4 so i could do some hasty pasalubong shopping as i hadn't done it yet.

and tadaaaa! i woke up past 630! panic full mode!!! was it 630 miss lily? i can't remember na actually. pero i called up roland and apologize profusely but he was also very late. hehehe. good thing na lang.

then i met him, rob, kiyo, and kazuya at shin-yokohama for the best katsudon meal i've ever had!


rob gave me a naughty calendar from club one seven. and roland gave me a box of ROLAND something. hehehe. i forgot what that food's called. it was like a breakfast cookie or something. para daw di ko sya makalimutan! haller! so hindi ko ba kakainin yun? hmmmm... pero tingin ko gusto nyang kainin ko yun so he'll live in my body forever and ever! pero ilalabas ko rin sa cr noh! har har har! :p meanwhile i was very flattered with the very friendly and jovial kazuya because he kept referring to me as sugoi omoshiroi or amazingly interesting! aba syempre di sya ma-amaze at ma-interested, eh, kinukuento ko ang mga beauty pageant stories ng pilipinas! :p

when we separated ways, it was roland and i on the train platform saying our goodbyes. hay. tagal na naman naming di magkikita. he boarded the train opposite mine. while the train wasn't going yet, people were looking at us kasi we were like children who played hide-and-seek with our faces from the train windows. para kaming nag-bubulagaan! hehehe. anyways, that was both a fun and poignant time. :) and :(

apr 21 was ending. though it was a super happy and gay day, i was sadly packing my suitcase at lily and lloyd's place. thanks lily. nakitulog pa ako. the next day, i was flying home.

mother teresa

a look at a surprising contradiction yet inspiring nonetheless:

http://www.time.com/time/world/article/0,8599,1655415-1,00.html

i never imagined the mother teresa we come to know as an epitome of selflessness, love, and piety, could be suffering from inner turmoil. nevertheless, we can draw inspiration from all her works and from how she eventually understood her inner doubts.

masters

congratulations

to

rhyze and gly! :D

ah murag kasal. hwek hwek hwek!

happy for you for getting your master's degrees!

mwah!

the importance of grammar

masyadong makabagbag damdamin ang previous ko na post. haluan natin ng medyong nakakaaliw na chika.

my friend elmer is one of the best writers and speakers (with perfect grammar) i know. one time he was the grammarian in our toastmasters club meeting. when he talked about grammar, he started by asking: "is grammar important?" then he went on saying na not really. he claimed that you can talk anything you want. with a few key words people around you will understand. you don't have to phrase your sentences in perfect grammar. he started giving examples. until he came to some examples of giving similar phrases or sentences that actually mean differently with how the tense or the number involved make the supposedly "similar" statements different. so grammar is important in conveying correctly what we want to convey. it allows the receiver of the message to actually get what you mean and avoid any misunderstanding.

kanina sa office at around 8pm. gutom at pagod na ko pero nung narinig ko ang boss kong nagsabi nagtanong sa team lead ko na "can you check the weather..." hanggang duon lang actually ang nag-sink in although may blah blah blah pa yung kasunod. naisip ko? ha??? check the weather? para saan???? at naisip ko na ahhhh he must have meant "can you check whether this or that..." hahaha

ayan, kaya dapat maingat sa grammar. although ako po, medyo pag pasensyahan nyo na. usually di ko na ni-re-review ang mga posts ko. when i read them the next day, ang daming mali. at ayoko nang i-edit pa kasi tamad eh. asus, actually alibi lang to noh. kulelat talaga ako sa grammar. kaya eto nag-ta-tagalog na lang ako. para di masyado halata!

ang oa ko noh? hehehe. the nerd of me! hmph! :p