PP

not papa mind you! :p but power player! yeah, i'm now a power player. mayabang na ako ngayon! :p

pero puede pud papa prasanna! :p

p rules! :p alliteration pa yang nasa taas!

eh ano ngayon kung power player ako? wala lang naman. may kaya lang akong mambato ng ibang tao! wehehe. actually i don't know the perks to that but winning against hustlers in poker makes me a wrestler! wehehehe... oh my god! i still can't believe it. i knew i had star quality. but will i ever be able to handle the fame? :p

thanks stan! i owe you the world! ;)

imran abbas

probably one of the handsomest, if not the handsomest, men my eyes have ever seen! romae accidentally found him (or was it the other way around?) hehehe....

hahay! to die for! hehehe :p

love quotes

unang-una, nandito ako dahil mahal kita.

- bong revilla to ducat

love makes forgetting the hardest thing to do.

i imagine

you walk beside me
a lover of all sorts
i imagine

you speak to me
with words in poetry
i imagine

you hold my hand
that feels forever
i imagine

you love me
for real
i imagine

i am bound
by the shackles
of my own imaginings

i relish the joy and pain
as if
you are here

what chris sang (loved it loved it loved it loved him)

Don't Let The Sun Catch You Crying

Don't let the sun catch you cryin'
The night's the time for all your tears
Your heart may be broken tonight
But tomorrow in the morning light
Don't let the sun catch you cryin'

The night-time shadows disappear
And with them go all your tears
For the morning will bring joy
For every girl and boy
So don't let the sun catch you cryin'

We know that cryin's not a bad thing
But stop your cryin' when the birds sing

It may be hard to discover
That you've been left for another
But don't forget that love's a game
And it can always come again
Oh don't let the sun catch you cryin'
Don't let the sun catch you cryin', oh no
Oh, oh, oh

chris i laaavvvvvv yooooooouuuuuuuuuu

last night's performance from my future husband chris richardson was captivating! gosh! i'm in love!

but i was really shocked that he was in the bottom 2 tonight along with stephanie edwards who was the one booted out!

boo!!! ano na ba nangyayari sa american audience??? bottom two ang dalawang may star qualities? don't sanjaya and gina ever feel guilty of still being there in the top 10??? gosh! the good singers have been eliminated. first sabrina and now stephanie. who's next? melinda??? well, i'm sure malakas sya pero with the way the voting has been going on, i should be preparing myself for the ouster of the best singers.

don't worry chris. mahal na mahal pa rin kita! ahem! :p

ass

one time nung nasa cebu pa ko nag-wo-work at mega healing pa ang pusho ko sa sakit na dinulot sa akin ni ryan seacrest lookalike, may naka-chat akong taga makati. well, i am by nature a teaser. and i love to be teased as well. uy, foreplay! wehehehe. behave emman. well, in the middle of our verbal (or written) acrobatics trying to outwit each other, my chatmate exclaimed "you're a witty ass"

kita nya ba ass ko???

another time, my super duper girly bra and panty wearing friend, ruben, introduced me to one of the big bosses of bigfoot where our other super duper kinky haired bra and panty wearing sister, dino, worked. he was a brash of a man. yet i stood my ground during our verbal wrestling despite my diminutive stance against his towering american bearing. :p when dino (aka kimberly) came to us, her boss said "your friend is a smart ass"

ass na naman???

ba't di na lang witty boobs? or smart boobs? tsk tsk tsk. or baka nga naman i'm gifted in that department! wahehehe. dream on emman. dream on.

anyways, i guess witty ass and smart ass can be interpreted in two ways. one, yung bad meaning. may kakabit pang "hole" minsan. hehehe. and two, yung praise which i hope was the one i got unless if they meant really my tush, my behind. hehehe.

but i would still prefer the witty boobs or smart boobs because i've been dreaming to have them. i guess i'll have to put them on first so i can get those comments. :p

trees na naman

some people know that i love trees. si johnx nga pag napupunta sa isang lugar na mapuno would exclaim "uy, magugustuhan ni emms dito. maraming puno!" ayan tuloy, kiko matsing, the self-proclaimed michael scofield in prison break lookalike (daw ha), couldn't stop laughing once when johnx said those words. pano ba naman? parang na-imagine nya na kung nandun ako eh nagtatalon talon na siguro ako at umaakyat sa sa mga puno na parang unggoy! or baka lang naman na-imagine nya kong gawing asawa at para may magdala ng apelido nya! excuse me lang. hindi ko carry ang matsing na surname! bertol na lang! yeah mas type ko ang nakakatandang kalbo! wehehehe. in fairness cute at mabait pa rin si kokiks. hmmm, kelan nga ba birthday nya sue? i was supposed to call him pala. hihihi.

anyways, talking about trees, jaycam emailed a link to a blog featuring 10 magnificent trees. kahit ang haba at puro puno ng figures and scientific names, eh binasa ko. ewan ko ba. gusto ko lang basahin. hehehe. ganun ko lang ka-gusto ang mga kahoy. siguro nga in the past life, monkey ako. ahhhh hindi! diwata pala ako dati na nakatira sa mga trees! hehehe.

enough nonsense. here's the link to the article: http://www.neatorama.com/2007/03/21/10-most-magnificent-trees-in-the-world/

forgive and forget

they say to forgive is to forget. aba syempre. if someone has erred against you, you have to forgive and forget.

if your girlfriend slaps you or pinches you with an inexplicable annoying pain, forgive her. then forget her. hehehe.

if your gang of friends play a prank on you that you never like, forgive them. then you can forget them.

if your boyfriends forgets your anniversary or any occasion that's special for you, forgive him. then forget him.

that's how that timeless maxim is actually meant to mean. hehehe.

oh, forget my senseless chatter. i just thought about it earlier as something to amuse myself with so that all the worries and stress at the moment evaporate.

but, seriously, the best way to forget how you've been wronged is to learn to forgive. and that doesn't apply to the people you know but to yourself as well. if you think you've wronged yourself, stop dwelling on the anxiety by forgiving yourself and by giving yourself another take on a better and bitterless life. :)

blogging

kakabasa ko lang ng blog ni chrismael (www.ismaelc.blogspot.com). nakakatawa yung recent post nya. medyo may kahabaan so scroll all the way down to see the book which said 100 blog ideas or something to that effect. hehehe. no one cares what you had for lunch. and ham and cheese? well, chrismael's blog is ham en cheese! wehehehe. it was probably the best buy for him! hehehe.

pero as i told him, nasa pagsulat lang yan. kung wala kang kiyemi na nag-express lang ng sarili mo. if you write to express rather than impress, i believe you're going to have some avid readers. but of course, who said blog should be intended so that people read you? you could keep a blog that only you know. ahem! hehehe.

and why blog? some would say why the heck would you write your lifestory in public space? it's like you're updating people about your private life na wala naman silang paki syo. paki mo rin? wehehehe. hindi. it's also one way of sharing with your friends what's happening with you may it be little details as to what you had for lunch. di ba when you meet up with your friends, you talk about life? why not talk about it in public space? just make sure that the things you share there are the things you want to share with all your friends who know your blog or who would come to know it. at pano kung nabasa ng ibang tao na di mo kakilala. eh ano ngayon? di naman kayo nagkakilala. para lang silang nagbabasa ng fiction. at kung babalik balikan yung blog mo, eh di mag-may-i-bow ka na kasi ebeg sabehen nun mega ang blog mo! patok in other words!

at para kay chrismael. sulat ka lang kahit ano. wag ka mag-alala, may FANS ka sa katauhan ko. kahit isa lang ako, FANS na rin tawag mo sa kin. at least masasabi mong marami kami o ako. :p

comfort or discomfort zone

well naisip ko lang kanina habang naglalakad ako pauwi na kung kelan wala nang kasiyahang mag-stay sa comfort zone mo, ang tawag dito ay discomfort zone na. hwek hwek hwek.

well yun lang actually. ayoko na syang i-elaborate. actually ang mga pumasok kanina sa isip ko tungkol sa comfort zone being discomfort zone ay mga tungkol sa closet cases of our high and mighty kind (hehehe) at tungkol sa mga pagpasok sa mga relationships na nakasanayan mo or dahil yun ang expected sayo.

ayoko nang i-elaborate pa ang oh-thoughts ko. i'm not feeling deep right at this moment. yung mga previous post ko lang may ka-seryosohan kasi may drama moments earlier! wehehehe. :p

a prose for a breeze of a personality

you. it was you. you were light. there was lightness in you. the first time i saw you. there was beauty. that smile. that all out smile. like there was nothing else. or no one else. save for me. and you. yes you. the first time i saw you.

you were smiling while walking towards me. daintily. yes. you were dainty. the first time we met. you had nary pretenses nor aloofness. you were so different from me. i wasn't smiling at you. yet you didn't have any care in the world as to how i would receive you. i didn't smile at you but i felt something in me. you made me happy that instant. for you were happiness emanating. you were happiness personified.

i came to know you. free spirit. you were spontaneous. you told me you missed me every time you did. and i couldn't help it. despite my thoughtful nature. sometimes my even manipulative self. you were a gentle breeze brushing against my troubled mind. you unloaded off me my burdens. you were always interested in me. you made me forget the things i wanted to forget. i always wanted to be with you. many have come to me. somehow they were like you. but they were never you.

yes. you. you were wonderful. you were always there. you were ever present. ever remembering. ever expressive. ever missing me. ever caring. ever giving. ever loving. never demanding. never asking. you were. in your ways i could not understand. in your ways i misunderstood. yet in your ways that i kept hoping for. in your ways that i kept remembering. in your ways that i was loving.

but you have gone. without a word. you are the breeze that swept me gently. you lingered while you could. but i guess i was not enough to have you stay with me. i miss you. if only i could tell it to you. if only i'm brave enough. you. yes, you.

best of friends

two nights ago, a few friends and i were talking about two girls who are so close that we've been wondering if there's something going on between these two other than being, well, friends. people notice them to be so engrossed with each other that they can't seem to be away from each other. they eat together, go to the pantry together, and go to the toilet together. they are seen giggling themselves silly or quarreling inexhaustibly. but the one thing that's most remarkable is that despite the length of time that they've been together, they haven't been seen with their lips shut. they chatter away the hours from morning when they see each other until the time they go home. who knows? they may even still be talking via phone, text, chat, or even telepathically when they're not together. hehehe. what's amazing is that they can't seem to run out of something to talk about.

that's actually a good thing. as one friend said, even married couples run out of things to say to each other.

anyways, that kind of relationship somehow reminded me of how it would have been with someone if only i could see him regularly. i only met him a few years back and saw him only a couple of times. yet the correspondence we've made after that brief meeting is astonishing to me every time he reminds me of the number of email exchanges we've made. he just told me earlier that i had sent him over 2000 email messages. and he sent me about the same number. i took up almost half of the space of his email archive which amounted to a total of 5000 email messages. i'm not sure. that's what he told me. hehehe. (correct me roli if i'm wrong) :D if that's the number of messages we sent each other, we had more emails than the number of days we've known each other since we just met november of 2004! wow! well, that's just nice to know. sad to say that he had to trash everything since he's leaving his company soon. but this very good friend told me that he kept everything in him. hmmm. in his heart, i reckon! how sweaty sweet! :p

well, knowing that just made my day. hope everyone has that kind of special someone whom they can talk to on hours to no end. :D

a psychic, two birthday celebrators, and a multitude of friends

i used to believe that i'm clairvoyant. there were times in the past that i experienced some gut feeling of anything that would later on (usually on the same day) materialize in one form or another. one time, i spotted a guy coming towards my direction while i was on my way home. looking at him, i instantly thought about my cousin abroad, though there wasn't any semblance at all between the two. when i got home, there was my cousin meeting and greeting me. i didn't know that he was coming home. a few weeks ago, i couldn't stop thinking about someone whom i used to be close with. there was that feeling of sadness hanging in the air while thinking about him, along with the strong urge to call him which i haven't done in a very long time. when i did check on him, sadness was pervading his soul at that time. this morning while preparing for work, i kept thinking about the notes, gifts, text messages, and greetings i got from my last birthday. then, this afternoon i received a pooh birthday invitation from one of my bubbly friends in cebu. i call these times of coincidences as psychic abilities. hehehe.

it was a surprise to get a birthday invitation for a party that's going to happen this saturday in cebu and for a birthday that's gone past already since march 8. apparently, it's a post birthday celebration. and despite my not knowing her birthday, i was still invited! hehehe. an invitation is just one form (and in the face) reminder of the birthday of someone you know. if you missed greeting him/her on the day itself, reminders in any form present opportunities to make up for missing or messing it. hehehe.

i used to give so little significance over birthdays, at least mine that is, until i started counting the years when my age won't even be numerically represented in the calendar, until i started thinking about the people i care for and the things that matter in life, and until i was touched by the greetings on my birthday itself from the people who truly care. my last birthday was probably the one with a lot of surprises. being in cebu that time, i was flooded with messages coming from different corners of the world: cebu, manila, bohol, cagayan, singapore, japan, the USA, and switzerland. some of these people didn't even know where i was at that time. yet they remembered. one of the biggest surprises was being greeted by someone whom, of all, i least expected to greet me on my birthday due to his religious affiliation. yet he went out of his beliefs to reach out and greet me. another one whom i had a short conflict with and despite knowing him for a short while only, dropped me a yahoo message even though i was offline. and then another friend whom i haven't seen for more than two years and whom i correspond with once in a blue moon only sent me a postcard and chocolates via snail mail! hehehe. how sweet! these things mean a lot. it makes one sentimental because you know there are people out there who truly care despite the distance, the length of time that you've known each other, the length of time that you haven't seen each other, or even the shaky quality of your relationship. i guess during one's birthday will we know the people who truly care and who wish us well. these are the people who are worth keeping since you know you can run to them whenever you need someone to run to. i guess i'm blessed with a lot of these people. our birthday doesn't just add a year to our age, it helps us realize the things that matter. most importantly, it helps us sift through the multitude of people we know and pick those who are truly worth keeping. after all, one who remembers you is one who cares for you. and so must we hold on to ever closely those who are worth keeping.

to nanie, belated happy birthday. and to the other friends who will be celebrating their birthdays soon, advance happy birthday. hehehe. but, of course, i'll greet you on that day! :)

mwah!

odd song choices

as i continually watch american idol, i'm reminded of the songs that have appealed to me ever since i descended to this earth and started loving earthly music. why not? the judges would, most of the time, comment about the contestants' odd song choices.

just this week when my bet sabrina was booted out (unfairly, if i may add. how come america?), i couldn't get out of my head the song she sang. it happened to be one of my favorite songs from en vogue: don't let go love. i was a bit disappointed, though, as sabrina's rendition wasn't as appealing as i hoped it would be, considering that the song could have catapulted her into the top 12 had she managed to sing it en vogue-like. i'm sure, though, that if she did that, simon would have criticized her for lack of originality instead of the odd song choice; but, a copycat performance would have most likely endeared her to the audience than a performance that differentiated her from the original artist but not quite near to the latter's take on the song. and i'm sure sabrina could have done a good copycat performance if she did just so.

anyhow, don't let go love may be an odd song to sing in a competition but it sure is not an odd choice to be played on air where it's expected to rise to the charts. talking about odd song choices, i guess i have them aplenty. here are just some and i don't know if people have even heard of them:

- suddenly by soraya
- fake plastic trees by radiohead, also sung by duncan sheik
- songbird by fleetwood mac, also sung by duncan sheik
- since duncan sheik has been mentioned twice, i'll say all duncan sheik's songs! :p
- it's alright, it's ok by leah andreone
- you make me remember by leah andreone
- under the water by merril bainbridge

and here's one i love love love love from en vogue:

Whatever


I’m liking you too much
Don’t take advantage of
My tender heart and everything about me
In giving you my trust
I’m giving you my love
So do take care, please be gentle with my heart
’Cause everything I do is ‘bout you, baby
Baby, I don’t wanna be apart, ooh
I’ve been loving you from the start
Here’s my heart, here’s my heart
Everything I do is all about you, baby

Whatever you do, whatever you think
I look in your eyes
You don’t know how my heart aches
Whatever you say, whatever could mean
You’re breaking my heart

I want it all the time, I want it every night
I can’t stop thinking, can’t stop thinking about you
I’m burning with desire, my heart and soul on fire
So do take care, please be careful with my heart

(Bum, bum, bum) Anything you do, I crave it, baby, baby, baby
(Bum, bum, bum) I can’t get you out a my mind
(Bum, bum, bum) Loving you I can’t deny you’re in my heart
(Bum, bum, bum) Deep inside, everything I do is all about you, baby

Whatever you do, whatever you think
I look in your eyes
You don’t know how my heart aches
Whatever you say, whatever could mean
You’re breaking my heart

I maybe a fool for you, baby
Well, I can’t help myself
Maybe I’m too in love
What else can I do but go crazy
For your love, boy, I’d give anything

(Bum, bum, bum)
(Bum, bum, bum)
(Hohh

Whatever you do, whatever you think
I look in your eyes
You don’t know how my heart aches
Whatever you say, whatever could mean
You’re breaking my heart

Whatever you do, whatever you think
I look in your eyes
You don’t know how my heart aches
Whatever you say, whatever could mean
You’re breaking my heart

Whatever you do, whatever you think
I look in your eyes
You don’t know how my heart aches
Whatever you say, whatever could mean

poker champion ever

in the most nerve-wracking, knee-wobbling, heart-pulsating, and mind-breaking poker game EVER in my life, i won $75,000 of FAKE money in www.triplejack.com! weeeeeeee... hehehe...

i'm invincible! you can't beat me now istanli! :p

memoirs of a gay siya: kasal ka dyan!

kring... kriiiinnngggg... krrrriiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggggg...

hello, auntie! kumusta?

oh, kumusta na ka dong?

ok naman po. kayo po?

ok naman din. blah blah blah.

blah blah blah.

o, so kelan ka papakasal?

ah, di pa po ako ready auntie eh. (hwek hwek hwek)

ah, so jan ka na maghahanap ng pakakasalan mo? marami bang pinay jan?

hehehe. punta po ako sa inyo jan sa germany. (ang napapansin ko lang po dito ay mga pinoys, lalaking chinese, lalaking indians)

ah. (ano ba tong pamangkin ko. evading my question about kasal and pinays. teka lang. parang girly yata boses nya ah!)

blah blah blah.

blah blah blah.

sige bye, auntie. thanks po. see you there. (i-ready nyo na ang german sausage!)

sige bye, dong. salamat sa pag-alaga sa pinsan mo. (bye iha siguro dapat!)

click.

:p

for GPS users

i used to work with a german r&d firm in the philippines whose product line that was never realized consisted of hybrid satellite receivers for GPS, GLONASS, and EGNOS! hanep! ano yun? hehehe. actually, i had nary any idea what i was getting into the time i joined the company. ayun! buti nga sa kin at naka-experience ako ever ng most challenging, most difficult, most out of this world (for me) project. pag-aralin ba naman ako ng mga signal carrier ek-ek, code carrier chuvalences, and viterbi decoding dedokizing horror! pamatay! dinala ko sa tulog ang trabaho ko nun! pero ok lang. with flair, finesse, and fashion sense, nalampasan ko rin ang lahat. at ngayon, wala na ang kompanyang yun. may it rest in peace! wehehehe. uy, pero hindi naman dahil sa kin nalugi ang kompanya! dahil sa aming lahat! hahaha. joke lang. in fact, i worked with the brightest minds i could ever imagine coming from UP diliman, la salle, and etc. hehehe. di ko maalala yung etc eh! :p and most of my co-workers were topnotchers in board exams. dahil dyan, pag may nagtanong sa kin dati, san ka nag-wo-work? sagot ko: ahem, vicon! proud eh. kasi belonging to a few elite geeks. ah, recording yun di ba? ok lang. para naman din talaga akong recording artist! :p

anyways, my memories of vicon are not only littered with horrific nights sa kakaisip ng optimum solutions for synchronizing and decoding data signals via the viterbi convolutional decoder (ahem), i had the best time in my working life. i met great people. and i loved geeky people! :p di ko ipagpapalit ang times dun sa vicon! ;)

anyways anyways, ano bang punto ng post kong to? well, i'm just plugging here my ex-officemate's blog on GPS. global positioning system pala to para sa mga gustong mag-memorize ng acronyms. pero si bob alam na to! uyyyy. hehehe. pampadagdag ganda points lang po. baka kasi iniisip ng mga tao na puro lang ako kagandahan. i also carry a brain inside this pretty head of mine! :p so ulit, my ex-officemate earl has setup his blog on GPS techie stuffs. if you're into GPS usage, visit his blog at http://philgpsusers.blogspot.com/

hay, yun lang dapat isulat ko sana sa blog actually at ang dami ko nang satsat. kasi just the mention of GPS, i'm flooded with good times and bad times in vicon that made my life all the more interesting! mabuhay ang matagal nang wala na si vicon! hehehe.

at kung may chance na balikan ang mga sandaling yun kahit dun sa puntong allowance na lang ang binibigay sa min instead na sueldo, uulitin ko sya EVER! pero sa bagay may ibang plans na ko ngayon. mag-po-project manager na ko! mag-aapply ako somewhere! weeeeeeeeee!!! :p

memoirs of a gay siya: mura

p*t*ng ina, may bakla pala sa likod ko!

ano???!!!

ay, sorry po. sorry po. di ko po inakala.

ang sama mo!

sorry po.

nagmumura ka pa ha!!!

sorry po. patay. pinoy pala. dapat ingat na ko. don't judge a book by its cover na ko nito. and shut up my mouth na. katakot magalit ang bakla! pero, maganda sya in fairness!

memoirs of a "gay siya" (the chronicles)

remember i promised that i'd be posting my own short story whose title is a rip-off of the phenomenal novel memoirs of a geisha? well, i started it since june 26, 2006 pa. it was the date stamp of the draft of that short story. although rereading the parts i finished gave me a few laughs at the corny jests i injected into the story, i'm going to trash it. i could do better! hehehe. in fact, this piece of post i'm writing is where i wrote that story minus the story itself. meaning, dinelete ko ung story sa post na ito at pinalitan ko nitong blah-blah-blah ko! hehehe.

i will still be writing, though, some pieces surrounding the theme that supposedly gave birth to the story which i just deleted. hehehe. but this time, i will be posting pieces that chronicle encounters of ordinary people with their higher kind: ang mga diyosa! hahaha. siguro it will be mostly based from true stories, mine and a few friends' perhaps; but there will be also those that are purely fictional. each time i post something of the memoirs of a "gay siya" chronicles, puede nyong hulaan if hango sa totoong buhay o hango sa kahibangan ng isipan ko! :p

also, chronicling gay experiences, or even gay imaginings, will be more fitting to the title of the series: memoirs of a "gay sya". masasabi talagang memoirs pag maraming stories di ba? so abangan ang mga ito! :D

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sa ibang bagay, di ba the date stamp of this post is supposedly june 26, 2006 or 06/26/06. it's very noticeable for me kasi medyo nahilig ako sa repetitive numbers. just like how 03/03/03 and 06/06/06 became memorable dates for me. bakit kaya? sekwet! :p at ngayon ung 06/26/06 is quite appealing. sa bagay ang dami kasing nangyari nung june last year. as in dami talaga! mapatingin nga ng mga posts ko that time! wahehehehe... :p

i love you ALL! MWWWAAAAHHHHH!

the power of goodbye (madonna)

Your heart is not open so I must go

The spell has been broken, I loved you so

Freedom comes when you learn to let go

Creation comes when you learn to say no



You were my lesson I had to learn

I was your fortress you had to burn

Pain is a warning that something's wrong

I pray to God that it won't be long

Do ya wanna go higher?



There's nothing left to try

There's no place left to hide

There's no greater power

Than the power of good-bye



Your heart is not open so I must go

The spell has been broken, I loved you so

You were my lesson I had to learn

I was your fortress



There's nothing left to lose

There's no more heart to bruise

There's no greater power

Than the power of good-bye



Learn to say good-bye

I yearn to say good-bye

malaysia road trip

chinese new year. romeo and i. on a road trip to malaysia.

first stop: johor bahru. 45 minutes away from yew tee. spent about 7 hours there.


second stop: kuala lumpur. 5 hours from johor bahru. spent about 1 hour there.

third stop: ipoh. supposedly 2.5 hours from kuala lumpur but the ride took 5 hours. spent overnight there.






final stop: penang. 2.5 hours from ipoh city. spent two nights there.


and the travel from penang to singapore took 12 hours straight! we were exhausted but the experience was throbbing in our heads like heartbeats you can't do without!

you are everywhere

in songs. and in song titles. in singers. in tv series titles. in restaurants. in bus tickets and calling cards. in figurines and stuffed toys. in picture frames and pictures. in pillows. in blankets. in bed sheets. in cellphones. in emails. in blogs. in salons. in wallet shops and bag shops. on roads. on pavements. in the rain. upon umbrellas. in the glaring sun. in shades. and spectacles. in buses and bus seats. in the mrt. upon mrt poles. in clothes hampers. in spoons. and forks. plates, glasses, and cups. in my laptop. in blank papers. in scribbles. in pens. on chairs. in strangers' giggles and laughter. in a seatmate's sighs and grunts. in someone's look and stare. in nobody's smile. in nobody's frown. in my palm. in my hands. in my chest. on my lips. on my face. in my eyes. in my dreams. in my thoughts. in my life. you never seem to leave me. you are perpetually everywhere.

AI disappointments

and the following were eliminated:
1. nick my soulmate :(
2. alaina
3. aj
4. leslie hunt

i wasn't really surprised with the elimination of nick and aj. i thought they're not as popular as the others. well, nick, i believe was popular among the girls but when he dedicated his song to his girlfriend, i thought right away that that placed him in a precarious position. people love to fantasize about those in the limelight. nick should have remained "single" to the viewers. that would have probably made him stay in the competition a little longer or at least for another week. and he wasn't even a bad singer! unlike sanjaya who should have gone home last week pa!

as for aj, yeah he can sing but somebody had to go. he lacked the lustre in personality that the others had. well he had the lustre but the others just outshone him. i would have rooted for him, though, because of his filipino roots but then again, i liked the rest better than him. hehehe. except of course sanjaya! whatever was uncle sam thinking about sanjaya, i just don't get it!

alaina was no surprise either. but leslie hunt??? leslie hunt??? oh right, some people have been wondering why she ever came through the top 24, disparaging her appearance (in the forums i've read). but heck, she can sing! yeah, she can sing better than antonella and haly!!! american idol is a singing contest and not a beauty pageant. gosh! although, i don't see leslie winning, i just don't see it fair that two less worthy contestants are still out there giving us headaches again with their performances next week. every time antonella performs, i go to the bathroom or somewhere where i can't see her or hear her. it's that bad! whatever was uncle sam thinking about antonella, i don't wanna know anymore! i can't swim in shallow waters! :p

anyhow, at least my bets are still there! i'm just gonna miss nick! ay, goodbye soulmate! :p