singapore gay news

in a country where diversity is supposedly celebrated, where prostitution is legal, and where abortion is legal, singapore remains to be conservative towards one reality: homosexuality.

read on...

http://www.gaynz.com/news/default.asp?dismode=article&artid=3963

with homosexuals being limited and homosexuality curtailed, there's no wonder that some aspect of the country is curtailed as well for there are things that homosexuals are naturally gifted with. take a look at the colorful tourism of thailand! with singapore penalizing what's supposed to be human nature, it runs the risk of shooing away into hiding their creative citizens, who could, otherwise, contribute much to its further development.

vote for the "gay persons of color" at the canadian blog awards: http://www.cba.myblahg.com/.

gay persons of color

my good friend roland sent me an email yesterday asking me to vote for his friend's, james, blog which is in the finals of the canadian blog awards for the "best new blog" and the "best cultural blog" categories.

before visiting james' blog, i already had a hunch that the blog tackled homosexuality. well, it was indicated in roland's email, actually. hehehe. kidding aside, i would like to feature james' blog here. with homosexuals thriving, or hiding, and/or struggling everywhere, james' blog is one way of raising awareness about homosexual issues. it is not all about issues, by the way. the blog also, of course, celebrates the colorful persona that comes with a homosexual. i invoke upon all forms of humans who want to support homosexual causes, who want to know more about homosexuality, who want to become homosexuals (hehehe), or who simply don't have anything to do, to go and visit the gay persons of color blog at http://gay-persons-of-color.blogspot.com/. better still, create a link in your own blogs to this blog.

and even better yet, vote for it at the canadian blog awards: http://cba.myblahg.com/.

help us raise the rainbow flag even higher!

to james, kudos again! :)

hodgepodge of updates

hay... haven't updated my blog for a long time already! 4 days or so is a long time already for me! :p

may utang pa ko sa mga fwends ko. i have to write about phuket. will write about it in the coming days. just wait for it guys and gals. kailangan lang ng mahabang upuang time. ;)

i think i'm going to have trangkaso. wag naman po sana! may D&D bukas! waaahhhh... kailangang maganda!

the xmas party committee met earlier! such a yummy meeting! :D the games were quite boring for me but i had to stay mum about it lest i'd earn the ire of the people there! :p got to talk with prasana though. of all the indians i talked with, he's got the most audible and intelligible english, not to mention, the good looks. :p

michael invited me to volunteer for CARE (catholic AIDS response effort) in singapore. check out this site: http://www.catholic.org.sg/cn/wordpress/?p=118&page=1. the nun featured in the picture happens to be michael's cousin. i'll be meeting her in the coming days. with this, am i returning to my catholic roots? well, it's not really that. the volunteering only requires talking with the people under CARE. i've always thought that i could be a counsellor. this might be my chance to find out if this is my true calling.

had GNO with my usual girls. had fun talking about lots of things. i'm going to list here soon things that i'll do before i turn 30.

am i a snake or a horse? that's been bugging me since forever ago! i was born jan 1, 1978. in the chinese zodiac, 1978 is horse but the chinese new year starts in feb. i read about the personalities of both signs, and swak naman ako both actually. that explains my schizophrenic personality! har har har! one snake trait is being reserved while a horse trait is being outgoing. i am both at different times! i'm reserved and outgoing! that's irony! :p

anyways, need to catch my sleep. tomorrow's another big day. will write more in the coming days once i get my health back to where it should be! :D

bintan escapade

this post is forever delayed. kaya i had to make it na. now na!

i'll post some pics lang. courtesy of kumareng sue. ;)

last may 28-29, i, together with the divinely beautiful sue, the papalicious labidabs of sue, johnex, the adorable chikitings of sue, sachi and colai, and sue's endearing brothers kiko and bob, went to nirwana gardens in indonesia.

tadaaaaaa....

the place was nice. it was very hot that time, though. or hot lang talaga ako? hehehe. we played at the beach. swimming. made sand castles that were never finished. the one thing that we finished was this: kiko buried in sand which gave him instant fame among passersby. :p

we also went around the place via an all terrain vehicle. i had a near death experience! while daintily driving the ATV, my thoughts sometimes wandered to someone who was in another all terrain vehicle! hehehe. kaya nang nag-biglang liko ang daan, nahulog si emman sa steep path going to the main road na maraming big trucks! buti na lang naka-break! ang nakakainis, ang taong iniisip ko nun ay hindi bumaba kundi tumingin lang sa kin... i hope nag-pray naman sya kahit kaunti... buti pa si kiko sumigaw ng "emmsssssss.... break emmssssss...."

that was the highlight of my stay there at nirwana. ang mahigpit na paghawak sa break ng ATV habang nag-aantay ng rescuer dahil 45 degrees to the ground ang position ko habang nakaharap sa main road around 25 feet away from me. napaso pa sa motor ung right beautiful leg ko! hmph! but that was a really fun ride! :)

and since nasabi ko na ang highlight ng bakasyong iyon, pics na lang ang magsasabi sa ibang nangyari! :p







hay! ang ganda ng nirwana gardens... gusto kong bumalik dun... sana sana sana... :)

p.s. mega-shock ako sa bill namin! around 1 million 900 thousand indonesian rupiah yata yun!!! yan ang equivalent ng around 200 singapore dollars... buti na lang at di pala kami nagpapalit at nag-credit card lang kami... kung nagpapalit eh baka may bitbit kaming lahat ng plastic bag para sa pera nila! hwek hwek hwek. malalaki naman siguro ang denominations ng rupiah, mind you! :p pero sa 200 dollars mo, milyonaryo ka na sa indonesia! dun na lang tayo tira para matagurian tayong millionaires! :p

pacita abad and the alkaff bridge

i didn't know that a filipino artist had a gift to singapore until anthony came and raved endlessly about it!

pacita abad who was born in the place which, for me, is the ultimate destination in the philippines to go to and which i have yet to go to, batanes, painted the alkaff bridge which crosses the singapore river in robertson quay.

anthony, miriam, and i walked almost the entire length of the singapore river starting at boat quay to clark quay and finally to robertson quay just to find this very colorful bridge which was inspired by the artist's theme "circles in my mind".

because of its vibrant colors, the bridge looked to me like a playground from afar. it also seemed like a colorful rollercoaster because of its structure. at near proximity, the bridge was amazing for it elicited from us three wanderers the excitement to see the work of a renowned filipino artist whom we just heard of recently. and what more? it somehow gave us childlike feelings of joy and wonderment. i guess that's how the late pacita abad's works affect her audience for, as written about her, she painted on themes of colorful dreams. our childlike manners emerged at the bridge as depicted in the pictures below. :)

i'm quite sure that a few filipinos know of this bridge. well, it's time we promote it. and why not? it's from our very own! to top it off, it's a wonderful work of art! ;) too bad that pacita abad passed away in 2004 just in time to finish the painting of the bridge. i wished she had also painted a structure in the philippines. but the alkaff bridge is not only her gift to singapore. it's her gift to us filipinos as well because we can have something to be proud of!

tawid na sa alkaff bridge!

for more info about pacita abad's works, visit http://www.pacitaabad.com/ :)

polygamy and me plus you

polygamy is a state of being polygamous which is having more than one mate at the same time. what does it have to do with me?

well, i have and had been receiving comments from people like:

"kadaghan ba nimog laki emman uy."

"you change your boyfriends as often as you change panties."

"bisan kinsa na lang imong ma-type-an."

"hindi ka loyal ha. ang dami nila."

hmmm, to those who don't know me well, yeah, i appear to be polygamous because i seem to have millions of crushes but little do they know that i only ache and yearn for one true love! nakring! (naks and charing combined)

having crushes is so normal. wherever we are, we would always find some people whom we fancy because they are good looking, witty, or interesting. the difference between me and some people who don't seem to be polygamous is that i am just vocal about my crushes. and why not? i'm simply admiring what i like about them.

but at night or when i am alone or when i am with some people really close whom i trust my life with, i think about one special person. i talk about one person only. my world revolves around him. my crushes vanish at night. they vanish the moment i don't see them. but the one special person is one who stays with me round the clock. he is so close, he is one with me. he lives in my thoughts. he is the one who makes me wonder what he's doing, how he's doing, or who he is thinking about. he is the one whom i shower loving thoughts upon, wishing him well in all that he does. he is the one who confuses me, who makes me analyze things that need no analyzing. he is the one whom i wish i could ask to take our relationship to the next level since our friendship has exhausted all there is to know about each other in that level. he is the one i want. he is the one who makes me wonder what he is like as a lover.

he is my world.

you are my world.

you know who you are.

i have many crushes but i walk only with you during my solitary walks. i sleep only with thoughts of you at night. and it's only you i find in my waking hours wandering inside my head like an owner of a house: the house of my heart.

monday anticipation

oh monday dalian mo na!

can't wait for you to happen na, monday!

:D

i'm so excited
and i just can't hide it
for you monday!

:D

aishitemasu

beginnings have always been easy and simple

like love without pretense and reasoning.

over time, knowing you became my joy.

over time, my dreams build up through

never ending thoughts of you; the

very symptom of loving someone, of loving you.

ever present, ever near, ever here, ever you.

every waking and sleeping moment, there's

you, and you alone, my naughty angel, my love.

fire alarm

just now lang, when i entered the mantrap door to our department, the fire alarm went off. i was very startled while inside the mantrap door. when i regained my composure, i realized why it went off. it, of course, detected a hot object! ME!

i was smokin' hot baby! hot hot hot! :p

free spirit

i never realized that i was that until a friend pointed it out during his last visit and until i got an email from my previous boss saying things i never thought he'd tell me.

what a life! :D

to the world: here i come again! catch me if you can! :D

a so so life?

somebody asked me last night how i am. he should be wondering as it had been more than two weeks since we last saw each other.

i didn't answer his question. i asked him, instead, to guess how i am and was during my vacation. he surmised that i had a "so so" time. how utterly wrong he was! if i ask someone to guess how i am or was, it's always a hint of a blast i had! ;) it's always a hint that i have stories to tell! exciting stories! ;)

i told him i was in a rollercoaster ride for the past three weeks. yeah, you can say it's an emotional ride where there are unexpected rise and fall punctuated by alternating excitement and fear. but for me, it's more than that! this time. there are times i dread a rollercoaster ride. and there are times i ride with its surprises excitedly! and in the past three weeks, i rode a rollercoaster with much gusto. everytime i rose to some event in those three weeks, my emotions heightened preparing itself for the plunge. and my plunges were always welcomed. i dove expectedly with the screams and unexpectedly with the smiles i never knew i'd experience! yes, the last three weeks were a blast of a rollercoaster ride! there were moments that i got tired but it was expected from the exhilarating ride. but for the past three weeks, i'd always hopped on. and i will hopping on it still in the coming days. ;)

too bad, this guy never guessed it right. if he had, he would have been treated to stories only his imagination allowed him to go to! oh well, good thing there were other friends who were able to guess it, albeit not the specific details but the exhilarating feeling i had.

the last three weeks weren't so so. not ever very so so. and that goes for my life. everyday, i experience life in all its blacks and whites and grayness in between and the vibrant colors without which later become stories to tell that don't ever border on boredom. ;)

a very very wise friend once said, only boring people get bored. and i'll add to that that only boring people have a so so time! :p

nagpapahaba ng hair quotes of the day

When you resigned NSP, I was so sad, I missed you much.
Now, You show the smile to me, your smile make me happy.

The project was in heavy situation, because we lost irreplaceable person, you have gone.

Maybe always love you =)

you are always slender.

japanese gay quote of the day

miss lendu-san no kikiru wa imal desu!!!
- emmsville on ms lendu's love interest

quotes of the day

"thiz iz it na jud! swear!"
- emmsville on his recent love interest. this quote had people asking.

"If I meet genuine him instead of picture, I may be falling love with him. (It is Joke!) !"
- yammy-san when he saw emmsville's recent pictures at nsp. yammy-san used to be emmsville's boss.

"you change your boyfriends as fast as you change panties."
- adz to emmsville

"don't linger too long on roads that lead you to nowhere."
- emmsville as a reply to adz' quoteable quote

thiz iz it! swear!

eto ang mga status messages ng mga kaibigan ko ngayon:
- i'm in love... that's why i'm cheerful
- dance with me
- live. love. life.
- i know i'll never love this way again.... waaaahhhhhh.
- kung ako na lang sana ang iyong minahal...

ang sa kin naman: thiz iz it! swear!

well, some were curious bakit yun. wala lang... that's what i felt and what i said to myself sometime during my vacation in cebu! ;)

and ngayon i think it's a bit fitting also. lately, i haven't had enough rest. i'm tired. i'm feeling the peer pressure that dr. boholst once asked me about. sometimes i think that i'm too selfless. as louie put it in his testimonial, i'm one who is always ready to go the extra mile for a friend. at some point nakakapagod. i want to be selfish but my system doesn't allow me to. sometimes i feel like flying off to somewhere without anyone knowing where i am. i might just do that anytime soon. and there had been signs lately. i've been receiving in just one a span of a week, invitations to apply for two positions in the US. although, working in the US is no longer in my plans, i'm kinda tempted to go there at this time. eh, i haven't had any invitations before. tapos ngayon dalawa pa in the span of just a week! senyales nga siguro ito! kaya nasabi kong "thiz iz it! swear!"

but we'll see. going to the US would entail a lot of things. first and foremost, mas lalo na kong malalayo sa cebu. ahem! well, i'll see.

thiz iz it! swear!

ang pagbabalik ni boy :p

i wrote a poem in march 2004 for someone i saw for the first time... as in literally saw lang... we never spoke a word to each other that night although we heard each other speak in front of the audience... i can still recall when i went inside the cafe, he looked up from where he sat and for a brief moment, we locked eyes. kasama ko pa ang sobrang gandang si romeo nun pero i'm pretty sure that he glanced at me more interestingly than at my friend. that brief moment had me smitten for over two years!

this poem, i wrote that night when i got home after seeing him for the first time (tingnan nyo mali mali na ang sentence pattern ko. ganyan ang effect nya. hahaha)

"dear boy"

dear boy, you were so fine

if ivory were black
that would have been the color of your eyes --
they gleamed with fluorescent lights

you smiled shy
with a sleek metal that glimmered diamonds
among perfected snow white stones

dear boy, i couldn't sleep

i kept recalling how the seconds seemed still
with your every movement
your blinking
your smiling
your talking
your glancing my way

the seconds were so slow and long

dear boy, you were so fine
i hope to see you again

- march 2004 -

it was the first and last time i wrote a poem for or because of a stranger. ang suerte nya ha! hehehe... well, ok lang na isipin nya yun! totoo naman eh! :D

and may gaaaaaadddddddd!!! tama bang pag-uwi ko ay babalik ang lahat??? hehehe... yup, i saw him and had the best night during my short vacation in cebu! walang sensual encounter! kayo ha! kung ano anong iniisip nyo... it was just the best night ever. he was funny, honest, daring, sweet, and romantic. the last two descriptions he never knew he's capable of. well, i guess he just had to be with the right person! wink wink! hehehe... we talked for more than 6 hours non-stop. that night nasabi ko "THIS IS IT"! hehehe

anyways, i've been writing a poem in my mind for him but i won't put it on paper (or on blog) YET until it's perfected... by love! charush! hehehe

but for the meantime, this has been my theme song for him... ewan ko ba, when it's about him, parating merong "boy".. maybe because of his boyish looks and antics... hay... weeeeeeeeee!!!

"Push the Button" by the Sugababes

Push the button [x4]

I'm busy throwing hints that he keeps missing
Don't have to think about it
I Wanna kiss and
Everything erotic but he's too distant
I wanna feel his body
I can't resist it

I know my hidden looks can be deceiving
but How obvious should a girl be?
I was taken by the early conversation piece
And I really like the way that he respect me

I've been waiting patiently for him to come and get it
I wonder if he knows that he can say it and I'm with it
I knew I had my mind made up from the very beginning
Catch this opportunity so you and me could feel it 'cos

If you're ready for me boy
You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go
You're gonna miss the freak that I control

I'm busy showing him what he's been missing
I'm kind of showing off for his full attention
My sexy ass has got him in the new dimension
I'm ready to do something to relieve this mission

After waiting patiently for him to come and get it
He came on through and asked me if I wanted to get with him
I knew I had my mind made up from the very beginning
Won't miss this opportunity so you and me could feel it 'cos

If you're ready for me boy
You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go
You're gonna miss the freak that I control

If you're ready for me boy
You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go
You're gonna diss the freak that I control

I've been dropping so many hints
You’re still not getting it
Now that you’ve heard everything I have to say
Where we gonna go from here?

After waiting patiently for him to come and get it
He came on through and asked me if I wanted to get with him
I knew I had my mind made up from the very beginning
Won't miss this opportunity so you and me could feel it 'cos

If you're ready for me boy
You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go
You're gonna miss the freak that I control

If you're ready for me boy
You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go
You're gonna miss the freak that I control

(Come on) If you're ready for me boy
(For me boy) You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go
You're gonna miss the freak that I control