vuzy az a vee

i'm going home. oct 24. till oct 30. gosh! would that be enough? so many things to do. so little time. kailangang: bday party for my mama (pronounced as mamahhh), meet the friendships, pampering at senses twice, hair makeover at franz, meet the igats, visit fe and my inaanak jeya, girlalou laag with some girlalous, meet d---e-, meet -r---, meet -d-, meet j-----a-, attend toastmasters, weekend mania in boljoon (in my dreams baby!), and of course shopping galore!

but before i go, do i even have time to finish all my tasks here??? i'm waiting for deliverance while working out for my deliveries!!!

kaya ko toh! darna!

soulmates

i never had a firm belief (or disbelief) about soulmates. at some point in my life, i believed in people having soulmates. but at this time, as i think about it, i believe that a soulmate is just something that people want to believe to exist because they are longing for that someone to fill a void in their lives, someone to understand them, someone whom they can share interests, hopes, and dreams with, someone to defy the world with, someone to fully open up with. but if we really think about it, we can do this with ordinary people around us especially with people whom we can love or who can love us.

but if one meets such person, one might just consider him a soulmate nevertheless because he fits the description. it isn't that bad to believe in soulmates after all. but what we should be conscious about is that we don't have to wait for that kind of person. we just have to be open as well as open our eyes. love is just lurking around in some people for us. they can just very well be our soulmates. they break through us if we allow them to. we can share with them our dreams if we want to. they can fill the void in our lives if we open up ourselves to them.

fair nga ba?

they say all is fair in love and war. but what if your rival has an advantage over you? like in the case of love, even if you have more love to give than your rival, but the object of both of your affections will, predictably, choose your rival because of what she has that you don't. in my case, my rival has the V to be proud of just by being a woman. anong panlaban ko dun?

the soft side

i always feel a pinch in my heart every time i witness softness in a person especially from a person whom one doesn't expect to show some emotion.

earlier i witnessed someone whom i just recently come to know a little bit more, someone who i think epitomizes a hyperactive and outgoing personality, wipe the tiny tears forming from the side of his eyes that tried to betray his jovial personality. and he wasn't even ashamed to exclaim that he was teary eyed!

it's admirable to see someone like that and from someone whom i think has gone through a lot with his life but has kept a very sunny disposition.

i wish him well in his life! ;) and i wish all those with a soft heart well in life. well, actually, i wish everyone well in his life! :D

friendster and trust

i was walking down memory lane earlier via friendster. i looked at friends' photos. while looking at their pictures, i remember how i had formed bonds with them. it makes me smile recalling how a number of those friends have shared so much of them to me. i recall most of them sharing sensitive things they've never shared to anyone except to me and to a handful other friends. and, to think, that some of them aren't what i consider really close that at this time i haven't heard from them anymore. but still they trusted me with information about themselves that they're confident i'd bring with me to the grave. yeah, i guess people see me as someone who can be trusted with their secrets (most especially the unpleasant or dark ones). and just recently a number of people have shared to me some things i never thought they'd share to me. well, they're assured of sekwecy from me! :D

as i've told some of them who trusted me, i could blackmail them and a lot other people if i wanted to. good thing that's not my nature! :D

it always pays off to be trustworthy. you get to have plenty of friends whom you can turn to anytime, anywhere, anyhow! :)

pag-ibig nga ba?

marami ang palatandaan ng pag-ibig. tulad na lang ng:

- kaya mong tingnan ang buhok nya sa ilong na sumisilip pabalik sayo kahit nakakadiri at yan ang ayaw na ayaw mong makita sa isang tao. pero pag sya, ok lang kahit mahaba ang hair... sa ilong... hehehe
- kaya mong pagmasdan ang pagtulog nya habang naaamoy mo ang bad breath sa hininga nya. ini-inhale mo ang ini-exhale nya kasi ang nasa isip mo lang is that that is the closest you could ever get to him.
- tanggap mo ang sakit ng hindi pag pansin nya syo. iniisip mo na lang na magmahal lang ng walang kapalit na kailanganin.
- pangarap nyay pangarap mo rin para sa kanya.

nakaka-relate ba kayo? may tao na nakakapagpagawa sa inyo ng ganyan? iilan lang yan sa mga ka-cornyhan na kaya mong gawin pag meron kang kinikislapan ng iyong mga mata. may mabababaw kang nagagawa tulad na lang ng paghigop ng bad breath nya at meron namang malalalim tulad ng paghahangad ng kabutihan para sa kanya kahit na ang kahahantungan nun ay walang magiging "kayong dalawa".

sige lang. ok lang. pag-ibig naman yan e.

sabi nga ng isang kaibigan at housemate, hindi sa pag-ibig nagmumula ang sakit. nasa rejection! ano daw? pakiulit! rejection! oo nga naman. masarap ang magmahal. pero masakit ang hindi ka mahalin ng minamahal mo. subalit. datapwat. ngunit. di naman siguro kailangang mahalin ka ng minamahal mo para ka sumaya. makita mo lang syang masaya, dapat masaya ka na rin. ibuhos mo pa rin ang pagmamahal mo na walang ini-expect na kapalit. pero kung hindi mo kaya ang hindi ka nya mahalin, aba mag-evaporate ka na lang o di kaya i-unlove mo sya. magsimula ka sa pagtitig ng mabuti sa buhok nya sa ilong. hehehe

a kiss in the dream

i never thought i'd be very excited over someone's coming over until i dreamt about it the other night. yeah, i'm happy that he's coming soon but to dream about it is so haller!!!??? errr, i didn't really dream about his arrival but i dreamt that there's a "we", an "us". he even kissed me in my dreams! and i thought, "in his dreams baby! in his dreams!" :p

i've always considered him only as a very good friend. although, he's always grumpy and suplado, i'm always able to ward off his negativity away from me, and away from him as well. that's probably why he always wants to see me when we're not separated by oceans and seas. hehehe. assuming! :p

anyways, i'm looking forward to his coming! heck, i'm excited! very very excited! it's been a very long time since i saw him. and if ever my dream would come true, a very dear friend of mine will be celebrating! tsk tsk tsk! hehehe.

the real blues

waaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..............

just came from the wash room (toilet, cr). and guess what? what??? the handsomest singaporean ever nandun. naka-blue. HUWAT??? napatingin sya sa kin. napatingin naman ako sa sarili ko sa salamin!!! ang HAIR ko HINDI mahaba!!!! ang sagwa! itong trabaho talagang toh oo!

naalala ko na now... nung nag-cr ako kaninang umaga after ako dating sa office, ang gulo gulo ng buhok ko! kaya pala siguro ma-chika si baoxiang sa kin kanina. baka gusto nyang isingit sa conversation namin ang tanong na "mahangin ba sa labas???". at kaya siguro tingin nang tingin sa kin si prasana ay gusto na nya akong suklayan!!!

ano ba toh! nag-blue pa talaga si beaumont, the handsomest ever singaporean to ever walk this earth! (daming nunal eh!)

balik na naman ang blues!

morning blues and whites

as i walked away from home this morning for work, i was feeling a bit melancholic recalling the text message i got from raki, the one word that francis coined about me the previous night, and yeah, the previous night.

i read raki's text when i woke up. she must have sensed that i felt stressed the day before yesterday. my psychic friend said she was just singing "healing" in her mind and remembered me! i miss you too raki! :)

francis asked me last night if i was already fine after the "episode" i displayed the night before. was it really that bad? for him to call my momentary withdrawal from the group an episode??? when in fact, part of the reason i was so stressed out when i went home was i couldn't connect to the internet due to the number of spywares in my computer that accummulated only that day! haven't told him this though. i have to find a good timing with me having a good mood! :p but i feel sad for my other friends to witness that "episode". i didn't mean to be obnoxious guys, gay, and gal. if i was, i'm sorry.

good thing my morning didn't just invoke the blues out of me. the whites came out of nowhere that made the blues disappear! ;)

when i arrived at buona vista mrt, there was white #1. baoxiang, my cutie cutie team mate. he's wearing a WHITE shirt. :) i caught up with him at the bus, sat beside him, and he was the first one to initiate a conversation. he seemed interested in me. hmmm interesting. :p

white #2. as baoxiang and i crossed the street near our office, out of nowhere came prasana, the only indian guy i found really really handsome in singapore! he smiled at baoxiang but kept looking at me. he stole baoxiang away from me but he kept stealing glances at me too while talking with him. and guess what? he was wearing a WHITE shirt as white as his teeth! when we exited at the same time from the man-trap doors to our department, i saw him, at the corner of my eyes, take a last glance at me with a smile before proceeding to his cube opposite my direction. of course, i didn't look back. i had to appear hard to get! hahaha. he seemed very very interested. hmmm very very interesting! :p

so now, i'm not feeling the blues. i was quite excited by the interest they showed. and i was drawn to the whiteness, the whiteness of their shirts! :p

what a morning! :D

thumb drive

b: ah, m, do u have a thumb drive?

(e overhearing, swivels around to the two talking, m and b.)

e: i have a thumb drive. (thinking: did i give a beautiful smile?)

b: oh, ok.

(m smiling behind b.)

e: but it's only 256mb. is that enough?

b: ahehehe. i have a 256mb too. maybe both will be enough. can i borrow it?

e: ok. ah, it's one dollar per minute.

b: ahehehe.

(e thinking: how super duper cute!)

(later)

b: here it is. thank you.

e: ok. (thinking: were my lashes batting the right way?)

(and a bit later)

b: can i borrow your thumb drive again?

e: sure. here it is. (thinking: you can borrow my thumb too! hahaha)

surprise bday partly

bday ni mareng sue nung sept 3. napag-isipan naming mga hausmeyts mag-throw ng surprise party para sa kanya sa sept 2 sama ang mga kakilala namin sa buong singapura. so mega-plan kami and mega-execute nung plans before the actual surprise surprise. kaso, imbis na maging surprise bday party sya, naging surprise bday partly sya! :p

ganito sana namin sya dapat i-surprise:

7 PM ang alam nya na punta sa bahay para sa isang munting salo salo together with friends. pero 5 PM dapat nandun na lahat ng kakunchaba. by 5 dapat ready na ang food, decorations, and na-orient na lahat sa gagawin. ang gagawin dapat ay pagdoorbell ni kumare, lights off, candles sisindihan, tahimik, bubuksan ko ang pinto, pagpasok ni kumare, labas lahat with mega sigaw ng happy birthday! super surprise noh?

pero ganito ang nangyari:

habang nagluluto ako ng spaghetti at around 2 or 3, ka-text-text ko si kumare kung san na sila, at iba pang fishing questions para malaman ko kung anong oras sila punta. may nag tip kasi sa akin na aagahan nila kasi tutulong daw sa pagluluto ko. etong kumare ko talaga, matulungin. kahit ayaw mong papasukin sa kusina, pasaway yan. anyways, kailangang di siya makapunta ng maaga sa house. so change of plans, meet ko sila ng husband nya. si romae na ang magbubukas ng pinto. so mega inaliw aliw ko sina kumare sa mall kahahanap ng libro for her and for ken (ba't nasama si fafa ken? eh nag request ng gift eh! hindi ko matanggihan ang ka-guapuhan nya!). by 7 ready na daw sila sa bahay. so uwi kami. text ko pa si romae na mag-te-text ako pag nasa gate na kami ng condo. nasa taxi pa lang ako, text na. paglabas pa lang namin ng elevator sa floor ng unit namin, aba, nakita ko na ang mega sale ng mga sapatos sa labas ng door namin. nasabi ko na lang "ay, marami na palang tao sa loob". blooper number 1 yan! pagdating sa door, may drama pa akong "ay, nakalimutan ko pala ang susi. tapos nag lock pa sila. doorbell na lang tayo." so doorbell ako! ava! bigla ba namang may clicking sounds (sinisindihan pala ang mga kandila). at ang tagal binuksan nung pinto kahit mega doorbell na ko. sabi ko na lang "ano ba yan? ano kayang pinag gagawa nila at di pa to mabuksan buksan?". baka nasa cr lang naman silang lahat. ngumingiti na si kumare. ine-expect na yata na may circus na sa loob. blooper number 2 itu! finally binuksan ang pinto! ang cameraman na si chris sobrang kita kahit magsingkulay na sila ng dim lights. eh parang ang ganda naman kasi ng red light ng video cam!!! hehehe. so ayun naglabasan na lahat. buti na lang merong confetti at may surprise na nangyari! hehehe

anyways, masaya ang gabing yun. people who were there were of course si kumareng susan ang nag-bi-bday, ang nakailang propose na sa kanya na asawa nya na si daddy johnx, the Y My God hausmeyts romae, shih, and moi, the angelic lai with her mommy and her brawny beau, jason, the aston mansion dudes and dudette (boney, larry, rence), the ever hyper jonathan coronel, the sometimes grumpy but always smiling chris, the maraming crush hermes, the housemate of chris and herms na si joel and his wife, rosalind the admired (by everyone) and soulmate ni shih, the isang bisita nina sue (forgot his name sowee) hehehe, and of course the love is sweeter the 2nd time around coz he's handsomer na papa ken with his sis christine and buddies christine and mark. i think everyone had a blast especially nung naglaro na ng cranium na naipanalo naman nung team ng bday girl. (to the other teams: guys thanks ha na pinagbigyan natin sila. hehehe). then sa trumps naman, naging reyna pa rin ang bday girl dahil na-perfect nya ang score sa trumps! ang galing talaga pag nag bday! :D

anyways, kahit naging suprise bday partly lang un, super saya naman. and we hope masaya din yung kumare ko! ;)

stressful day

yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away. far away from where i wanted them to be. because they were just near me.

had a very stressful day. i thought it was going to be a wonderful day actually. i saw my four major crushes in the office more than once in one day. and i saw them, out of the corner of my eyes, stealing glances at me! but was tense due to:

1. interfacing between my engineer friends and recruiter friend for job applications
2. battling with the tigerairways site to book my flight to paradise. my credit card was forever denied! i had to make my booking via phone which cost me $6 more!
3. planning about my trip home with lots and lots of conflicts! my lola going home on oct 25. some friends planning to come over on last week of oct. i even forgot about raki's wedding! plus i didn't know if my manager would approve my leave. arrrggghhh... good thing my manager said i could take a week's vacation but only on the 4th week of october.
4. people rushing to me for this and that... and it of course includes work!

when i got home, ahhhh, nadagdagan pa. kakahiya coz we had visitors pa but i was so silent. pagod lang talaga guys. (i know you're going to read this) ;)

and it's not always about him. trust me! ;)

bigla na lang

nagbabalik ang mga dating nakasanayan. sabi nga nila things happen for a reason. siguro even if i had my share of being aloof and trying to put some distance with some people, the greater scheme of things had it that way. i learned a lot kasi. and i know i shouldn't be doing that anymore. especially when all i wanted to do was just express myself. but i kept myself from doing that. anyways, i'm glad na nagbalik ang mga dating nakasanayan. :)

(it's not comfort zone i'm talking about. it's just something that i wanted back to happen again these past few days.) :)

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the celebrities in me

my bf (bestfriend po) adrian sent a link to a face recognition website where you upload your photo and the site analyzes your face and gives you the celebrities whom you kinda look like. i had fun trying out my photos and here are the results.

me 1:

that ever beautiful smile me!

the celebrities in me:

lisa ling. 76% kamukha ko. sino toh??? well, exotic naman beauty nya. parang nymph of the woods naman ung beauty nya. puede na rin. diyosa na rin tulad moi! :D

eddie murhpy!!! 75% kamukha ko! gosh! san ba kamimagkahawig??? ah, may flower nga naman sa ears. puede na rin! :p

petra nemcova. 73% kamukha ko. di ko kilala pero di na kailangang mag-comment. there are traces of me in her face! ang GANDA nya! :D

me 2:

sophistaced look of moi!


the celebrities in me:

yund li. 70%. huwatttt? sino ka? may bug ang software nila!

christian bautista. 66%. buti na lang na-redeem ung first one. hehehe. sa mga may crush kay christian dyan, i'm your altertative. for guys only nga lang! :p

jude law!!! 64%. may gaaaaaaadddddddddd!!! my delicious idol! nasa top 50 celebrity crush list ko toh!!! magkamukha talaga ang mga magkakatuluyan noh? :p

me 3:

ngiting may kasamang kaba kasi ang nasa likod ko nyan ay taong nagpapakaba sa akin! char! :p


the celebrities in me:

camille velasco. 67%. kung ayaw nila sa kin sa philippine idol, mag-a-american idol ako! :p

rajneesh. 66%. major bug ng software!

won bin!!! 60%. muntik akong himatayin dito! nasa top 3 ko ito ng asian crushes ko! hehehe. hi won bin! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! :D

at yan lang naman ang mga celebrities na i-po-post ko. what i posted here are the top 3 "matches" sa kagandahan ko except kay won bin! i just couldn't pass it up. nasa panglima yata si won bin. kailangan lang makita ng mundo ang kaguapuhan nya na bagay sa kagandahan ko! :p aside from these celebrities, kamukha ko rin pala si neve campbell, leelee sobieski, and demi moore! :D

try nyo na rin the site at http://www.myheritage.com/FP/Company/tryFaceRecognition.php. patawarin na lang ninyo kung merong bugs! like me, be assured of the fact na the site is not perfect unlike sa tin. hehehe. :p