la familia singapura

that pic was taken inside the fullerton hotel during the ex-manila-nsp-now-in-singapore reunion last friday, may 26. we were not smiling because we're supposed to project a "gulong ng palad" family picture... but someone is smiling!!! waaahhh! can u spot him???? :p

anyways, the people on the pic from left to right are: jerick the kailangan nang gupitan, emms the kontrabida (that's moi), aze the bimbim of mike, jerrha the admired (ng combuilder men), maricris the bagong hairstyle and color, ho the traitor (nag-smile eh! hehehe), carol the true-blue persona of a gulong ng palad family female member, fred the true-blue persona of a gulong ng palad family male member, rhea the business tripper to singapore, and marvin the picture taker (so he's not there. hehehe)

it was fun seeing these guys again! we went to hooters where we had our appetizer. as in! akala namin may full course kaming makakain... appetizer lang lahat! hanggang 930 yata kami nun tapos di kami busog! hehehe... then we went to two cafes (max brenner in esplanade and the other one i can't remember) pero hanggang entrance door lang kami. we ended at the hawker at the back of esplanade with me, jerrha and aze having a specially made toast bread which had a sweet cheese and a salty taste courtesy of its maker's sweat. grabeh! habang gini-grill nung guy ung bread namin, sobrang pinagpawisan sya. i'm sure that i'm 99% correct in assuming na kahit isang patak nung pawis nya ay pumunta sa bread namin! oh well! masarap naman! at flawless din kaya ung guy! type actually! hehehe

sa susunod ulit na kitakits dear ex-manila-nsp-now-in-singapore guys and gals! :D

AI finals

ngek! they don't deserve it! hindi amazing ang performances ni kat at taylor. finals pa naman! but taylor will win. he had better performances. maganda lang ung performance ni kat sa "somewhere over the rainbow". pero ung "first single" nya, ang pangit. nag-piyok sya! pitchy!

it should have been elliott and chris.

i can imagine elliott singing "if i could dream" and "just once". just two of his superb past performances. the finals require kasi 3 songs from each finalist. the first two songs are from past performances. and the last song is (i think) written for the finalists to sing during the finals. elliott and chris would have made the finale songs that kat and taylor sung more likeable. ang pangit ng pagkakanta nila.

wrong grammar

unlike before, i now seldom review for grammatical mistakes what i write in my blog. click na kaagad ako ng "publish post". ang dami ko tuloy wrong grammar. meron pang mga lacking words. eh tamad na rin akong mag-edit.

oh well. ok na rin yun. at least lumalabas ang totoong ako. isang pinagkaitan ng talentong ma-perfect yung grammar. :p

testi

tama bang gawing testi ang personal message? bakit kailangan pang i-send ang personal message bilang isang testi??? eh hindi naman testi ang dating?

(bitter ba? :p)

spontaneity versus planning

i chatted with roland a while ago. wala pa daw syang chuva-luv. pareho kami! i almost blurted out to him na kami na lang pag umabot na kami ng 35 tapos wala pa rin. :p

but i had to hold my tongue, err, fingers (from typing) from telling him that kasi baka ma-shock. i didn't have the luxury of time na i-explain everything sa chat kasi may ibang gumagamit nung laptop. so, i'm postponing it till either we meet or i get my own laptop na.

eh bakit di na lang ako naging spontaneous at sinabi na lang un sa kanya? eh kasi naman, baka maudlot na naman. ang mga bagay na ganyan, kung aging na ang tao, dapat pinagpaplanuhan na. otherwise, lalong walang mangyayari. lumampas na ko sa finish line ng edad na mag-antay ng chuva-luv! it's time to plan for chuva-luv na!

ano ba tong mga pinagsasabi ko? good night na nga!

me!

for those who've been asking for my pics! ;)

that's my beauty in singapore!

hahay......

super confirmed na.

meron na talaga!

:(

hay, life!

hon pa tawagan nila.

we used to call each other that.

biruan nga lang.

pero what if......

what if puede pala sana that time?

bago pa kasi sila eh.

siguro end of march.

or early april.

based sa mga testi ha.

not testicles, mind you.

but testimonials.

nagawa ko pang magbiro!

ha ha ha

eh, dapat sad ako!

or baka naman wala talaga pala.

i mean, feelings ek-ek para sa kanya.

baka na-miss ko lang ung kulitan namin.

bigla na lang kasing nawala.

eh dati, halos araw araw.

ngayon ko lang naiisip ung feelings ek-ek na yan.

dati...

hmmm...

ano nga ba dati?

well, anyways...

ganyan talaga.

ang engot ko naman na mag-isip na puede kami.

kung nag-make ako ng move dati.

syempre hindi noh!

puro joke lang yun.

kaya pahinga ka na lang emman.

hinga ng malalim.

at kalimutan mo na lang.

ang lahat.

walang kamatayang elliott

since the american idol top 4's performance, i can't seem to get elliott out of my head. everyday i think about him. when he wasn't eliminated yet, i thought of how he'd fare in his coming performances. and after he was eliminated, i thought of what a waste it was to lose such a good singer and not see him in the finals. oh well, that's life!

today, the songs he sang during his past performances keep on playing in my head. here are the links to those songs:
http://www.americanidol.com/videos/?vid=383
http://www.americanidol.com/videos/?vid=384
http://www.americanidol.com/videos/?vid=385
http://www.americanidol.com/videos/?vid=386
http://www.americanidol.com/videos/?vid=388
http://www.americanidol.com/videos/?vid=390

hay, ang tagal naman ng album nya! mapaet! :p

what is love?

di ko na actually alam eh. nagbabago ung definition ko ng love. dati, konting feeling feeling lang jan na parang heaven love na. tapos bigla ko iniba ung belief ko na hindi love ang ganyan. na love is only true when you have it with someone you "know".

ang corny ko! love ang lumalabas sa isip ko ngayon! :p

at since naguguluhan ako, i'll stick with the definition i usually wrote on slum books when i was a kid which is "love is like a bubble gum. kung mopilit makabuang" (in tagalog: "love is like a bubble gum. pag dumikit, nakakabuang) :p

at least yang definition na yan, lahat makaka-relate. hindi malalim. pero in a way may katotohanan kahit anong angulo o anong klaseng definition meron ang iba tungkol sa love!

i modified it pala recently for someone. i just told someone "my love for you is like a bubble gum. it's prohibited in singapore" bwehehehe

pag-ibig nga naman! :p

Home by Elliott Yamin

eto pala pinaka-fave ko na performance nya: http://www.americanidol.com/videos/?vid=384

paulit ulit kong pinapakinggan...

hay, nakaka-melt...

pag-ibig na nga ba?

he buzzed me

i answered

and waited 5 mins before his reply

which was

"wait lang. hehehe"

what is that?

buzz me then ask me to wait?

then he came back

for every message he sent me, i answered with 5 messages

then had to wait 5 to 10 mins for his answer

.........

it's confirmed

he has someone

whom he won't tell me who

it's ok

i'm fine

not totally affected

not yet

it hasn't sunk yet

when it does

i will still wait for him to text me

or buzz me again

AI Videos

grrrrrr!!! ang bagal nang downloads!!!! i'm in american idol site para panoorin lahat ng performances ni elliott!!! naku, each clip is taking 48 years! tatanda ako nito! hay... ok lang.. willing akong pagpuyatan... ganito yata talaga ang pag-ibig.... willing mag-sakripisyo!

nood na lang din kayo! eto favorite performance ko sa kanya: http://www.americanidol.com/videos/?vid=387

Mis-Taking One's Advice

i told one of my closest guy friends that the "my best friend's wedding" type of deals are not romantic. why have a deal with your best friend na kung wala pa kayong siginificant other by the time you're 30 or 35, eh kayo na lang magsama. why not magsama na lang now? obviously, gusto nyo ung isa't isa to ever consider that arrangement. if hindi nyo gusto ung isa't isa as partners in life till death do u part, y make such a deal? pag inabutan kayo nung age limit na sinet nyo at ayaw nyo pala, ang mangyayari nyan extend nang extend nang age hanggang umabot ng 80 kasi wala pa rin kayong mahanap!

well, in a way nagtaray ako nung sabihin ko yun. pero guilty din naman ako nyan pala! hehehe. about two weeks ago, i was planning on making a proposal to one of my special friends na pag single pa kami by 35, kami na lang magsama! haller to me! di mo ba nabasa advice mo sa taas emman???

ok, i'll decide na lang on that later. kailangan ko pa kasi isiping mabuti kung gusto ko nang mag-settle down or magpakasaya pa! :p

My American Idol

And there he was, my American Idol, Elliott Yamin, eliminated. Sad! :(

I expected it, actually, after his performances which were just OK. He didn't have a "moment" song unlike Taylor and Kat and unlike his two performances the previous week. And since I expected it, I shouldn't be very sad right now, di ba? Pero haller! He had the most touching video among the three of them. So I'm sad to see him go! And I'm pretty certain that many people out there are sad as well for his exit. I feel that his exit makes people sadder compared to Kat and Taylor going (if they were the ones eliminated).

I don't cry over people getting voted out. Pero, sobrang pinipigilan ko kanina umiyak. Kahit pala si Sue naiiyak! At gusto pang gawing boyfriend si Elliott! Sorry Sue, akin sya! hehehe

Ang lamang lang naman ni Kat and Taylor sa kanya is confidence. But vocally, he's way greater than them both combined! hehehe... Ang maka-Kat at Taylor dyan wag umangal. Ang aangal pangit! :p

Hay. Hay. Hahay. I can't even form my sentences well. Dati napapangitan ako sa kanya pero habang pinapakinggan ko sya kumanta, na-i-in love ako!

Kung ano ano na ang da-da ko dito! Basta, for me, Elliott is the American Idol. Actually, Universal Idol ko sya! Ever!

Sisikat din sya. Sure ako. :)

Elliott Yamin IZ d MAN

yipee!!!! elliott wasn't eliminated! but chris was. :(

i think my last post takes away my credibility as a psychic! i predicted that elliott would be the one to go and that chris would ultimately win american idol! but i was wrong on both predictions. elliott was even in the top 2!!!! gosh!

i don't mind not being credible anymore! what matters is elliott is still IN! he IS really the MAN!!! he should win!

and oh, it really should have been kat to go.

oh well! go ELLIOTT YAMIN! :D

American Idol

i'm depressed. i just watched american idol where MY american idol almost moved me to tears with his first song. elliot is my remaining american idol after patrick hall, david radford, and paris were eliminated.

i'm depressed since i have this great feeling that he'll be eliminated next despite his awesome performance. he was just the best tonight with both his renditions of elvis' songs. the judges were unanimous in giving him praises for his great performance. simon even said that he's the underdog but deserves to stay for the next round. i hope he does.

the remaining four are all talented but it's elliot who has the best voice. he can sing the sentimental songs and make you cry. and for someone like me who doesn't cry easily, with elliot, my gall bladder is near my eyes!

if he's really good and did a great performance, you may ask why i'm worried. it's because the other three are more popular. oh well, i just hope simon is right. and i'm hoping even more that he'll reach the finals. even if i really think that chris will win the competition.

hahay.........

For BxK

"Orange"

Today
You are the color of the sun
When it peaks at dawn
Much like my hope
Rising ever steadfast
For you

Yes today
You are like the sun
When it twilights to darkness
Much like your look
Getting cold
For me

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May 5, 2006

kaspa (in tagalog: balakubak)

i am in awe

thinking long and hard
about commands and securities
that make me dazed
leading my hand skywards
towards a throbbing head
to scrape away ideas
that confuse this neophyte.

scratching with great fervor
these thoughts that itch
like confusion in winter,
snowflakes fall before me
in this hot equator,
in this hot singapore.

i am in awe!

i look for witnesses
to the ugliness of
snow white particles against
dark fabric, and dust
silently, albeit hurriedly, off
the snowflakes on shoulders,

and place my hand
down to the keyboard
to think once again
ever harder and longer
about commands and securities

where I'm in awe.

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Apr 21, 2006